got my phone back :D

wen to amk hub today to look for bags
but in the end all the bag shop gone le
sian.... still didn't get my bag....
but, i bought quite alot of mask
haha
dunoe when then can get my bag......

this few days have been so tiring and so hot!!!!!!!
i don't know why i feel so tired
but i am just tired...
can't help but to fall asleep during recess and after school while waiting for that streaming talk
though very hot, i still get to slp
and i dreamt of stupid things, like getting punished by zls, zls asked me to do 20 un-downs =.=''
today happy toilet was.....
crazy?
i don't know how to describe it
laughing here and there, going in and out of the boys toilet
seating on the floor keeping quiet and listening to songs
fanning ppl with cardboard
"your effort is recognised"
haha, thx tessa
now, i am considering which subject should i take
at first, i was very sure to wat subjects i want to take
but after listening to the streaming talk, i am reconsidering.....

SA is coming...
going to really work very hard on revising
as i don't know alot of things!!
like history and maths....
really have to study le
and JIAYOU to everyone!!!!
hope everyone gets the marks they wanted
as i know the feeling of putting in so much effort and yet never get the result we wished for...
JIAYOU!!!!! :D

fuck la!!!
i don't like the feeling of being forced!!
idiot。

无法用言语来表达我现在的心情
我只能哭，用哭来发泄自己的情绪
我们的目标一直都是荣誉金
一直一直以来都是……
为了得到这荣誉金，我们每天都用心的练琴
可是到头来，只拿了个金牌
牺牲掉的时间是数不清的
我们的汗血……
在演奏完后，我们好高兴
我们认为可以拿到荣誉金
我们觉得自己演奏的很好
老师也这么说，个个都在称赞我们
连根本就不认识我们的老师，都说我们会拿荣誉金
说我们是最好的乐团
我们很很很高兴
可是成绩出炉后，我们一点都没有喜悦感
在心里的，只有满满的失望
没有欢呼声，只有拍手声
没有人想到tamasek sec会拿荣誉金
虽然说，郑老师对我们很满意
但是，我觉得我们还是辜负了郑老师的期望
让郑老师失望了…………
对不起……
在上台之前，郑老师还来关心我，叫我不要怕不要紧张……
“在我心目中，你们是一个荣誉金的乐团”

好心疼……好想每天都上华乐
没心情做功课，没心情读书
好多人哭，可是我跟自己说，我不能哭
我不知道我为什么不让我自己哭
但是这么跟自己说
我强忍着，一直强忍着
不愿看别人哭，因为我怕自己忍不住会哭出来
指甲陷入肉里，让疼痛散掉想哭的念头
回到家里，终于忍不住哭了
哭的好心痛，即使现在在写的时候，也很痛
那荣誉金，是我们梦寐以求的……
是我们很想很想很想要的
希望越大，失望就越大……

那画面…………
整个比赛的过程……都历历在目
欢喜，拥抱，哭声，失望，遗憾，伤感……

学长们，为了在下一届的SYF
我们会非常努力的！！！
我们不会让你们失望！

proud to be in mfco!
love you ppl!

stupid。

遗憾，没拿到荣誉金
只拿了金牌
虽然说金牌不错
但是……
荣誉金就这么飞掉了
我们要的是荣誉金！
很不开心…………
My GOLD WITH HONORS!!!!!!
好心痛……
付出了这么多……
下一次的SYF，就不会跟同样的人演奏了
i love you MFCIO!
and all MFCIO members!!
哭了……
all the hard work will not be forgotten
all the good memories will not be forgotten too
all the days we have been through......

for my birthday,i nid to say thank you to alot of ppl
thanks for giving me presents and cards and wishes!
thanks to:
pei qi jiejie, mingrong, mingfang, liwen, sinyei, wenwen, linshen, yongjun, yijin, wenliang, weiting, sheila, lynette, qirong, jinfeng, jiejia, jinli, virginia, wanyi, sharlene, cheryl!

the only thing i can say is,today is nt a gd day
hais....
alot of things happened, but don't really wish to say
和平共处都是假的
暗地里的勾心斗角才是真的
going to corrupt soon....